It's as if I'm scared.
It's as if I'm terrified.
It's as if I scared.
It's as if I'm playing with fire.
Scared.
It's as if I'm terrified.
Are you scared?
Are we playing with fire?

"Avoid all needle drugs. The only dope worth shooting is Richard Nixon."
-Abbie Hoffman

holidaze

thanksgiving alone
...

[confession time]

meow

And if you don't like cats, I don't like you. Simple as that.

you read my mind

yup.

I think I wanna major in psychology and minor in philosophy.
I wanna be a chef tho.
I dunno what I’m doing.
I’ll just wait to drop out of college to go to an art school.
Sigh.

#moodyteenager101

Highway to San Francisco

I’ve decided that if I do get accepted to San Francisco State and actually get to attend, I’m gonna get a card for medicinal marijuana. I hope for it to lower my s.a.d. And just make me happy. I’m kinda scared to find out what will happen if I smoke it while taking adderall. I mean I’m gonna have to take both. How is it possible that I need a pill to help me concentrate, giving me more energy and brain power, yet I need a depressant to calm me down? I heard stories about people using both at the same time and having bad experiences. Yet the feeling is magical. Mhmm. We’ll see.

my life

Hello there

[cred: http://majormodelparis.blogspot.com]

Daria's daily words of wisdom:

Preach.

say whaaa?

Unbelievable.

reality.

[quote]

“I’ll eat when I’m dead”- Daphne Guinnes

[illusion time]

a convenient truth

There is a drug that cures it all
Blocked by the governmental wall
We are the scientists inside the lab,
Just waiting for the call

am playlist

Blank state of mind

I don't know how to behave around human beings. Could it be that I was never taught the "cordial mannerisms"? Maybe. All I know is that surrounding myself around many or just one human causes my heart rate to go up. This is not normal, I know. You see, I have this horrible imbalance of chemicals in my brain which causes me to have social anxiety, along with other problematic malfunctions which cause me to malfunction in the real, scary world. My knees get weak. My face turns red like a tomato; others think I'm blushing. I wish I was. My hands start to sweat and shake. My body trembles. It's not even cold. I studder if words come out my mouth. My body temperature exceeds rapidly. My heart starts beating very rapidly against my chest; I can hear it. My mind goes blank; I stand/sit there looking like a lost puppy. I need pills to help get through these kind of situations. I can't get these pills, you see. I don't want to depend on another source that will possibly lead me to another addiction. I want to test my strengths. How far can I go before I finally crumble like a hard chocolate chip cookie?

Let's find out.

A n x i e t y

My best visual explanation of my s.a.d. (no, I did not draw this)
[ The many things I stress over every day...unless I'm alone in my room. Just another human diagnosed with s.a.d. ]

there's one way or no way

adderall vs. not taking adderall

i take it.

psychoanalysis

S T O P messing with my delirium

[self portrait time]

only cause I was wearing my Calvin pink shorts.

peace be wit u

Procrastination or child labor?

Different school year, yet I find myself in the same situation...how silly.

[inspiration time]

summer snapshots

Just a couple random snapshots from my week in San Diego during the end of my summer. Not in any order by the way.

the beginning of my summer consisted of...

A trip to Castle Park...

A day in beautiful Laguna Beach...

Snappin' a mirror pic in a art store in Laguna Beach...

Droolin' over chocolate-candy covered apples...

Grubbin' on a big ol' burrito...

Buyin' some souvenirs in a local gift shop...

So, I know I have not updated/posted anything since spring...crazy I know!

I will try my best to keep my blog fresh with a new post at least every week. Lately, I've been so busy with college applications, scholarships, and the other wonderful responsibilities that come with being a senior. ~

After November, I plan on sharing fashion, music, interesting, rad people, and other coolie stuff that I encounter on a daily basis--just in time for all the winter fashion!